Tuesday, July 05, 2005

I got cake...

Yesterday, I got cake for my birthday. The b-day is actually today, but in keeping with my usual stretching of the standard day into several days, I had cake and stuff at my parents with my brother, his wife, and the nephews there too. I suppose I'll get cake again today and a pseudo party with the same cast of characters, minus the folks...

On the one hand, it's nice to have people around that care and such. But on the other hand... it is my birthday and I really don't feel like spending it doing the obligatory festivities with the family. I put in my time yesterday...

What I would really like on my birthday is to get some calls from old friends that I haven't heard from in a while. Maybe one of them would bear the gift I really want... to be excited about life again. It's been a while since I've gotten excited about much that's going on in my life -- perhaps because not much has been going on in my life. It should be a pleasure to get up in the morning, but it really isn't and hasn't been for a while.

Why is that, I wonder?

I think it's mostly me. I'm getting older and that's not the best, but I don't think that's the main reason for my ennui. Mostly I'm just bored. I haven't done much to challenge myself and I'm not getting much of a challenge from work so that leaves an excitement gap for sure. I don't like where I'm at either. That's certainly more of a reason than getting older.

I don't know... I suppose there are a lot of contributing factors, but maybe the biggest is that I'm restless. I've been in Wisconsin for three years and I feel like I lost ground. Instead of going forward, I've gone back and that's not a direction that generates much excitement.

So, there it is... I need a new direction. That was easy.

In the mean time, I shall merrily eat my cake with the nephews, trudge off to work and wake up again tomorrow.

P.S. -- While I'm waiting for my new direction to arrive, I will gladly accept the gift of nubile nymphs to share my cake with...

P.P.S. -- Happy Birthday to Eileen who got old this week too...

11 comments:

Sadie Lou said...

Happy birthday Shawn. I bet your mom was glad when you born on the 5th instead of the fourth. Who wants to share their birthday with Independance Day? Blech.
It's almost as bad as my birthday which always falls on Memorial Weekend. It was awful trying to have birthday parties when I was little; everyone always had "other plans".
Do you get that a lot?

The Zombieslayer said...

Happy b-day! Unfortunately, don't have any nubile nymphs to share with ya. :(

Sassy said...

Happy Birthday!! I like cake ;)

tshsmom said...

Happy Birthday Shawn!!
Don't get so down on yourself. When we're young and idealistic we think we're gonna change the world in BIG ways. As we get older we start realizing that we've changed our own little corner in inumerable ways.

Sadie Lou said...

FYI--Sassy isn't a nubile nymph. She has a hubby and a kid, according to her blog.
If that matters.
;)

Jason said...

Happy birthday! I'm rooting for you vs. the ennui!

Laurie said...

I love cake!!!!!

Happy Birthday!!!!!!

(Oh...I didn't mean to cpy you, Sassy! It's just that great minds think alike!)

joanne said...

Happy Birthday to you!
One of only a few
Hope your day was happy
Can I have some cake too?

My lame attempt at a song. Yike. Don't make fun of me. I would like some of your cake, though. Can I? Purty please?

Shawn said...

Yo, yo, Jo you gots some flow... That's the best birthday song I've ever gotten!

I have reserved slices of cake for Jo-Anne, Laurie, and the Sassmaster... you may all also have some ice cream too...

The Girl in the Black Tee Shirt said...

Hey Shawn---Just dropping by to say hi and belated happy birthday!!

Miranda said...

Happy Birthday! Sorry my greeting is late! *passes you some strawberry mochi ice-cream* It's not quite the same as life excitement, but it'll help!

For the record, you're not
old `til you're eighty. Get out,
smile, dance. But don't stay down!